Benefit of the Doubt

Sorta.

Ive just realised that Id blocked my caller id, so any calls Id make, or sms's Id send would not show my number. This was just confirmed when I tried to ring my brother, and he didn't realise it was me calling. And he's a big techno dude, so he'd know...

So, B may not of known for sure that the message was from me yesterday, hence his reply of "cheers".

Sill, I haven't heard from him otherwise though. :(

The Wife

Went to the gym this morning, which is one of a number of local gyms, but happens to be nearest B, and on the way home, driving past his house, as I do from time to time (honestly its on the way), I saw the family car had been reversed in to the driveway, and the boot was open... I parked around the corner, walked through the park opposite their house and across the street, and looked through the trees while pretending to be on my phone. Hung around a few minutes and saw... the wife. She was getting her shopping out of the car. Not very clearly, I have to say. Saw her just a little clearer when she came to letterbox. Smallish build, hair half pulled back. Dressed a bit frumpish. I don't mean that in a disrespectful way. She looked mummsy, and practical.

Anyway, I feel low for even "spying" on her, even if it was only for 2 minutes.

I am very torn today on what to do. Haven't heard anything from B obviously since the "cheers" freaking goddamn stupid message that raises my hackles whenever I think about it! I'm still thinking wtf?

Supposed to be going to the local pub with a girlfriend and one or two of her other friends tomorrow night. Will probably see B, but have decided that while Ill make it so he sees that I'm there, Ill play it cool with him. Hopefully there will be other talent we can talk to and hang with.

I also don't think B will be working this Sunday, because he has already had his flexi this week, and not due again for 2 weeks. He tends to work the Sunday when he has Monday off.

I wanted to call him and ask if he was working Sunday or not, and whether that meant he would be coming to see me or not on the Saturday night. Depending on his answers I was going to give him a bit of a hard time. Just a little. :-)

Anyway, I'm gradually learning not to act impulsively. Ive thought about it, and know if I called or texted again about anything, I will look desperate and needy etc.

So, again, I wait. And will give the SOB a small but quiet piece of my mind when I see him. If I see him. Okay, when I see him.

Cheers!

Through a social networking site, Id noticed B had changed his profile pic, to a really awful modified one. Very unflattering, but it's funny at the same time. Sent him a message this morning saying what a shocker the pic was. 6.5 hours later he replied "Cheers."

Cheers? Cheers? WTF is that? Gee I'm sorry that I'm not worth more than 15 seconds to send a decent reply to.

Or, here's a novel idea, how about a goddamn phone call?!

Sad but resigned

No B tonight either. Lovely message received saying he had a lift with his parents (they must of gone to see his show, or else I think it may be the owners birthday bash...) etc.

Am very sad. And dissapointed. I had already resigned myself to a relaxed night at home; my 2 eldest daughters and I are having a cruisy night watching movies and eating pizza.

I replied saying how sad that was (that he couldn't come by), and could we please try and meet up during the week because I cant wait a whole week before I see him again. I also said how I know he wouldn't want to hear it but that I miss him...

He replied that he'd try (to meet up) but that things have been flat out lately (although I don't know if he meant work or home, or both?). And he said he misses me too.

Unfortunately, next weekend I'm due to have my period, and he will possibly be working on the Sunday morning...

Sigh.

Here's Hoping

Sent a text yesterday saying I'm going through withdrawals... he replied a few hours later saying "Yeh. Me too."

Well, Damn it!, I hope we fix that tomorrow night!

Brushed?

So, after that text from B on the Tuesday, I didn't hear from him at all... not even by Saturday night.

Id gone out the night before and actually, I hooked up with a cute guy Id always liked when we were in high school together. He was keen for some action back at my place, but I gave him a head job - if you can call it that (it was less than a minute) - instead. He had a good size dick as well; bigger than B. But I wasn't interested in a one-nighter.

The next night (Saturday) I went out too, but was home by 11.30. Id figured that since I hadn't heard from him, that he wouldn't be coming, but it would've been nice to be kept informed. He's normally more considerate; he'll sit on the other side of me if the breeze is blowing in the wrong direction so that his smoke wont go on me, or he'll ask his mate to move so that I'm included in the group, or he'll put his hand over the break lever so it doesn't dig in my hip...Anyway, this was the first Saturday night, apart from his holiday and our break (and one other occasion) that I hadn't heard a thing. I was devastated.

So, Monday morning, I sent a text asking if he'd brushed me, "just so I know". He replied, and said "not at all", and that he'd gotten a lift Saturday night. He asked how I was and about my weekend. Fab.

Now what? Just wait until the next booty call? Guess so...

All is okay. I think.

Ummed and ahhed about sending B a message today; something general like "this weather is gorgeous!" or "hope your Tuesday is fab" or something equally cheesy and girly. ;-) I did not send one however due to that very fact, and was glad I didn't, because he sent me one at 11.00am explaining how he didn't have his phone on him on Sunday night and therefore did not get my original text (about meeting me at the ATM) until yesterday. Id also sent a message a little while after Id returned home thanking him for the drink, to which he replied "my pleasure" and said have a great day. "You too." I replied.

So, I think we're okay. I was worried that... I dunno, like perhaps he'd want to end things after my clingy attack. lol.