Christmas!

I saw him today. My kids had gone to their dads, and I was driving to Christmas lunch with my relo's. I drove up the street before his, and as I came to the round-a-bout, there he was in his car, along with the family. There were no other cars. Because he was on my right, he had the right of way, but I followed closely him through. I turned off though in the direction he'd originally come from.

Now remember, my number plates are different. I dont know if knows that or not. He would've taken a look at my car though, for being similar, so...but I dont know. His car has tinted windows, so I couldn't quite make out if he was looking back in his mirrors or what.

I was shaking for a few minutes after that. A bit of irony in that I saw him today...

Hey!

"Yeah you too!"

I received his reply just before midnight.

No reply

I still think of B every day. More than once a day. In fact, still, quite often. Further, the last 2 mornings I've woken around 4am, simply thinking of him, and last night in particular, could'nt go back to sleep for more than a hour.

I haven't seen him for - what? 3 months now? I haven't heard from him for more than 2 weeks, when he asked how I was.

I sent him a message this afternoon just wishing him a fab Christmas, and hoping 2012 is better for him than 2011.

Well, it's 7.5 hours since then, and he's not replied. He is working his night job, so...

That makes me so sad.

We're now at 'no reply'.

:*(

I messaged him Friday night while I was out at a Christmas party. Told him that that artist had sent me a friend request... It's Sunday night, and the bugger didnt reply. Payback?

I had a little cry today. I'm missing him so badly. And yes, Im missing sex. Actually, to be honest I just want to fuck. But if it were a matter of 'just sex' I could make that happen with some random dude.

I went to the local pub this evening; didn't see B there though. I also have some guy who starting in-boxing me, and friended me, because we have a mutual friend, and now he wont leave me alone, even though we haven't actually met. He's called a few times, as well as texted. Its actually put me off a little.

Then there's my friend that I've known for a while, also a B (but cant remember what I've referred to him as on here). He - without doubt - contacts me every 2 weeks or so. Sometimes more, sometimes less. He called yesterday, left a message about doing something this arvo, so I called him back last night, and we had a quick chat, and then he said he'd buzz me in the morning (today) to see where things were at. He didn't call til 2.30. Said his phone was flat, and he'd gone out with his daughters so hadn't had a chance to call. I said Id waited for his call, but ended up making other arrangements. And thus, why I went to our local pub. A guy from the gym goes for a drink every Sunday arvo, with his wife, and we get on well.

So, lots going on, but not much either.

I just want B...