Boobs: Take #2

So finally I had my breast augmentation done Monday (and just as a side note, what a difference!). I sent B a message around 10am saying it all went fine and "woohoo", and he replied "nice work. happy?". Well, I dont know if they're nice work yet - he can let me know when he sees them. :-)

Early Wednesday i got him to chase up with his friend M about my car, and whether he would be able to fix it for me or recommend some one who would... I still hadn't heard by Thursday afternoon, so I gave him a call. Was nice to have a normal chat. A few minutes later, M called and went through the list of what he thought my car's priorities are, and while I thanked him, I also said that I was quite understanding if he didn't want to do any of the work himself, but to point me in the right direction of who he'd recommend...but he said he didn't mind doing it himself. Later I sent B a text thanking him for chasing it up, to which he replied "No worries".

I went out last night with my girlfriend who is neighbours with M, and I spoke with M for a little bit while he got some details off my car so he can order some parts etc. He seemed very serious and quiet. He had been working on his own car, and was also on call for his job, so perhaps that was why, but I think some of my own guilt kicked in and I was feeling that maybe he felt awkward about the "situation", and also that Ive never actually seen him totally sober. :-)

Anyhow, I didn't hear from B Friday night, or last night, so that was a bummer, but not unexpected. It kind of made things a little easier though, because while its not a definite serious committed relationship with this other musician guy (although I would like it to certainly head in that direction), this guy - lets call him R - and I are in contact in some form almost every day, although I haven't seen him for 2 weeks now. Still, I have guilt that Im still wanting to see B too.

Crazy world.

Threesome?

Earlier tonight Id sent B a message along the lines of not liking our time constraints, and the 'wham bam thank you maam' feeling, and explaining that while I know that things are how they are, I delayed getting in to him last night, because when sex is over, he leaves pretty much immediately.

So I put out a challenge that next time we'll see how quick we can be...

I went to a girlfriends for a couple of hours tonight, and on the way home, even though it was a detour, I drove past his house... his car was there which meant he would've carpooled. But I sent the initial message tonight at 7.47pm and when I drove home it was 10.45pm, so I started worrying that not only had he got a lift, but had also left his phone at home... (and that my message would be discovered by his wife)!!

A few minutes after I got home though, he replied saying he knew the situation 'sux', and that next week he's staying at his parents, and tonight was out of the question unless I was up for a threesome.

Now, I don't know whether he meant that staying at his parents works in our favour (they live 2 minutes away from me), and whether he meant both Friday and Saturday nights. And was he joking about the threesome thing?

I simply replied "You're a shocker. Night babe" to which he replied, "Yeah. Night".

Friday Night

I have to say I was surprised, and of course pleased, to get a text from B last night asking what I was up to. I said I was home, and he asked what I felt like. I could of answered that any number of ways: I'm wet. I feel good. Hot raw sex. I replied ""You?". He said he may be able to swing by, and at a few hours later at 12.13am, he said he was on his way.

We talked for a bit, but it was a good ten or fifteen minutes before I even touched him. He kept taking pointed looks at his watch, that I think was meant to be a bit of joke, but a bit of a reminder of time as well. He even made a comment or two about 'time' and I told him he should of driven here faster then. He replied he couldn't have driven any faster than he did...

We talked about his work mates "knowing" about us, and about my friend who is his work mates neighbour who also knows. B was a bit worried about that, and I said, and its the truth, that Id trust this woman with my life. He wanted to know what she thought, and I just said that she didn't love the idea, but she is there for me. I told him that he must share a bit of info about me with his mates, because M had mentioned a few things he already knew, when we were at my friends last Sunday night. B also asked how my "man" situation was going, in particular that guy who is also a musician that Id been seeing, but I tried to explain that I didn't think it was going to work out because I hardly get to see him although we're in constant contact, and he was currently interstate, for example.

So, like the last time I had him here, he wanted to wear a condom. Just in case. You know. Which is fine with me, but really, other than the very first time we had sex, we really should of worn one each time, not only to safeguard against pregnancy but also against infection. I don't know where he's been. But he is right, better safe than sorry, regarding getting pregnant.

But, unlike other times, he went down on me. (There was the one time he did make to literally go down on me, but that was when I was at the end of my period, months ago, and I pulled him back up to me). Actually, he had me straddle his face while he was on his back. I love oral sex, but for some god damn annoying reason, I just cant relax, and let it all go, and enjoy it properly, and I've never come that way. We were doing a bit of a 69'er, except it was a bit difficult to concentrate with his mouth doing those things to me... I told him to put the condom on and I rode him instead. Ye-ha!

Ah! Sweet bliss.

And, for probably the first time, he came quite quickly.

As he leaves he always thanks me for having him, which I have to say I don't like. Its like I've done him a favour. Which I guess I kinda have. I dunno, I just don't like it. He wished me luck again for Monday (the reappointed boob procedure time), gave me a kiss, and and he was on his way by 1.30am.

Boobs: Take #1

Today I was booked in for my procedure, and I was really pleased to get a message from B before hand wishing me luck. Longs story short, the op didn't go ahead due to a power failure, although I should say I was there for almost 6 hours, right up until I was about to be anaesthetised and my chest was marked up and all, before they cancelled it on me! I was not happy!

It has been rescheduled for Monday now at a different hospital, and I'm first on the list, so I let B know...

Catch up

I thought Id see B for sure last night (Saturday), cause I at least had his cigarettes to give him. ;-) but when I hadn't heard from him by midnight I realised that he wasn't coming by.

I texted him asking "I'm not seeing you tonight?". And then I went to sleep.

Around 2.30am I woke, and discovered he had sent me two texts in reply. The first one just said he couldn't come by because he was "car-pooling", but that he could come by after work the next day and / or "bump" in to me at our local pub in the afternoon. And he finished by saying "I miss you." The second text must of been because I didn't respond; he said "Well?".

I didn't think he'd appreciate a text at 2.30am, so I sent one when I woke at 7.30am, and just said I couldn't believe Id slept through getting his texts, told him my daughters were home, and that he should pick a place and time for when he finished work and Id meet him there.

I went to the gym as usual, and had just finished my cardio part of my workout when he texted for me to meet him at the lakes, where we've met on other occasions.

When I arrived, he pulled out a couple of fold out chairs, and we sat in the shade of the trees, with a gentle breeze, in the gorgeous sun-shiny weather. Shame we only had water to drink.

I gave him his cigarettes, and showed him the photos of my trip. And we talked for just over an hour.

As well as working Saturday nights, Friday nights are also booked now, until Christmas (and then he has a 6 week break). But it doesn't look like Ill get to see him any of those times because they've decided to continue car-pooling.

This Thursday I'm having a boob job; I don't even fill an A cup, I've had a number of children, and I'm almost 40 (in 5 months). I think it well deserved. Id told B about this decision just before I went on my holiday, and he seemed to think it a great idea. So, when he told me about car-pooling, I reminded him of my 'pending acquisitions' and told him he wont get to see them then. At first he thought I meant I just wasn't going to show him, but then I clarified and said "because you're car-pooling" and he said "we'll see". As we left each other he said he'd message me Friday to see how it all went.

There was no other physical contact other than a kiss on the lips hello, and goodbye. And while I was happy I got to see him, and spend time with him, I'm probably more upset than ever knowing that I wont have him in my arms for god knows how long, if ever again.

I really don't know what it is about this man.

He's still going up to the pub this arvo with a big bunch of guys apparently, and I may be too with a couple of girls I was on holiday with. We'll be lucky if we do anything more than the " 'sup" nod and smile in acknowledgement of each other.

holiday

So after B left, I showered, dressed, picked up my friends and headed for the airport. We spent 10 days in a popular tourist Indonesian island, and it was great!

During that time, I sent B a message, firstly via text, and then through another social networking site we're on, asking if he wanted me to buy some smokes for him (theres a certain brand he likes). He replied saying yes, that would be great, and we messaged back and forth a little.

I returned on a Thursday morning, didn't hear from B the Saturday night, but he did send me a text the following Tuesday saying he'd 'noticed' I was back in town, and asked again how the trip was. I reminded him I had his smokes, and he replied that he'd forgotten all about them (yeh, right), and that he saw me drive past his house the Sunday after I got back (I was on my way to the gym) and thought hed see how I was.

And that was it.