Friday, February 17, 2012
Feeling a tad sad tonight. For a number of reasons. Tired as, for starters. Has been a hectic few days with my kids, my study, and work. Also I started on a new contraceptive pill a couple of months ago, and last month my period came a week early, and I had them, albeit lightly, for almost 2 weeks. This month Ive had some spotting, also a week early, and I think my hormones are a bit all over the place from that.
I am meant to meet up with a guy I 'met' online, who lives interstate. He happens to be down this weekend for a family event. We spoke last week, and seemed to click. Wednesday we texted and I asked if it was okay to call Thursday night or Friday, and of course he said 'of course'. I called just after lunch, but it went to voicemail. So I sent a message saying Id call tonight. I called at 9pm, but it went to voicemail again. It's not that Im wondering where he is or am having insecurities thinking he's changed his mind about meeting me etc. I guess he must be at work - he is a cop. I know Ill hear from him tomorrow.
I think just the timing isnt good that he wasnt able to talk, because Im also feeling a bit down after seeing my muso friend and the pics he has up on his wall (social network site). One woman, who is married, and had earlier said she wouldnt be at the show tonight because her hubby is working, turned up anyway, and got her photo with him. Imeediately I started thinking about one of the songs he's written, about wanting to be with someone, who is married, but how he doesnt care, he just wants to be there with her. So Ivé banned myself from checking his stuff. lol. And from sending little chat messages while we play Words With Friends. :P
Added to that, a show called Mobbed was on tele. This girl went to see some band, and didnt get to meet the guy (from the band) like she wanted, but somehow or other she was able to get in contact with him, and for 5 years they had an online relationship. They call each other their best friend. Then, he staged a get together, a 'mob', with dance and music performances, as his way of then saying he wanted to take their relationship to the nexl level, and pursue their relationship to see if they could build on it. And then they kissed, and the celebrations continued. Nawww.
I read somewhere today - although I cant remember if it was in relation to affairs, or toxic relationships or what - something about questioning whether - when a relationship ends - you miss the person, or how you felt when you were with them. With B, I can definately say both. He definately had his good qualities, and I felt very relaxed, yet very aware of myself and him, but I also did like how I felt with him. But obviously it wasnt a complete, whole relationship, and there was always something missing. But I would've loved to build on it, in a heart beat.
I am meant to meet up with a guy I 'met' online, who lives interstate. He happens to be down this weekend for a family event. We spoke last week, and seemed to click. Wednesday we texted and I asked if it was okay to call Thursday night or Friday, and of course he said 'of course'. I called just after lunch, but it went to voicemail. So I sent a message saying Id call tonight. I called at 9pm, but it went to voicemail again. It's not that Im wondering where he is or am having insecurities thinking he's changed his mind about meeting me etc. I guess he must be at work - he is a cop. I know Ill hear from him tomorrow.
I think just the timing isnt good that he wasnt able to talk, because Im also feeling a bit down after seeing my muso friend and the pics he has up on his wall (social network site). One woman, who is married, and had earlier said she wouldnt be at the show tonight because her hubby is working, turned up anyway, and got her photo with him. Imeediately I started thinking about one of the songs he's written, about wanting to be with someone, who is married, but how he doesnt care, he just wants to be there with her. So Ivé banned myself from checking his stuff. lol. And from sending little chat messages while we play Words With Friends. :P
Added to that, a show called Mobbed was on tele. This girl went to see some band, and didnt get to meet the guy (from the band) like she wanted, but somehow or other she was able to get in contact with him, and for 5 years they had an online relationship. They call each other their best friend. Then, he staged a get together, a 'mob', with dance and music performances, as his way of then saying he wanted to take their relationship to the nexl level, and pursue their relationship to see if they could build on it. And then they kissed, and the celebrations continued. Nawww.
I read somewhere today - although I cant remember if it was in relation to affairs, or toxic relationships or what - something about questioning whether - when a relationship ends - you miss the person, or how you felt when you were with them. With B, I can definately say both. He definately had his good qualities, and I felt very relaxed, yet very aware of myself and him, but I also did like how I felt with him. But obviously it wasnt a complete, whole relationship, and there was always something missing. But I would've loved to build on it, in a heart beat.
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