Sad

So, no call. No text. Nothing.

I went to bed just after 11pm; and didn't sleep til 1.30am. I called him at 12am and just after 1am (blocked my number) but there of course was no answer.

My emotions and thoughts were all over the place, as they are now. I swing between being furious, sad, and feeling that as usual, a man I care about has disappointed me, big time.

Ive thought about confronting him somehow, or even confronting his wife and telling her. But in the first instance, begging isn't a good look, and in the second, well, its seems he's perhaps already started his own demise.