Disappointed

Its 8.15am Sunday morning.

I am very disappointed. I didn't see B last night. Or Friday night. And he worked both nights. For some reason I really expected that I would see him last night though, even though I was telling myself I wouldn't (how confusing is that?).

I drove my daughters to a party last night, and on the way home from dropping them off, I drove literally past his house. The way his work car was parked suggested that he would've of been the one driving everyone last night... but then I remembered that he said something about working this Sunday (today) for his day job, and if that were the case, he would've been too tired to stop by my place.

I understand that, I guess. But some contact would've been good.

I'm so disappointed with myself too that I didn't even reach out to touch his hand when we were together on Tuesday...

Also, I sent B a quick photo message Id taken on Friday, of some advertising Id seen, which is for one of the places he works at, and he didn't respond. :( He's had trouble receiving pictures on the main number in the past but he still would've know it was me trying to send something.

I dont know how to move on from this. I dont know how to not think about him.